I’m Back!!!
First of all, I owe an apology to those faithful readers of my blog. I disappeared without a word and looking back on it, that was a very bad decision on my part. So, I’m sorry.
At the time of my last post, I was spending a lot of time thinking about and living ANXIETY. I was watching videos on YouTube from other anxiety suffers, I was surfing websites for more information, and I had joined an online support group. I think it was joining the support group that put me over the top. It was wonderful to connect with people who were like me and it comforted me. However, I was finding that my support group were spending their entire day talking about anxiety. Be it posting on messages boards, chatting in a forum, creating blog posts, etc. etc.
I was trying to get away from anxiety not get more involved with it so I decided to just shut everything off. I didn’t want to lose anymore time to anxiety. My days were full of anxiety and anything that called for more attention on anxiety, at that moment, was a bad thing.
Now I am back at a place where I can once again begin to write about my experience. I am no longer spending hours upon hours surfing the Internet, searching for comfort. I still have anxiety and I will for the rest of my life. I have finally accepted that but that doesn’t mean that anxiety needs to run my life. Anxiety doesn’t define who I am. I am not an anxiety suffer. I am Jason and I happen to have anxiety but I also happen to enjoy cooking, photography, playing the piano, and much more.
I still see a psychologist every three weeks and will continue to do so. I am learning a lot about myself and how to have more control and most importantly live in the present moment.
Once again, I apologize for the disappearing act but I am back now and hope that my those who were here before will continue to come back and follow my journey so that we can heal and grow together.
July 8th, 2009 at 1:39 pm
Hi Jason. How old are you anyways??
I enjoy cooking and photography and playing the piano too… although i must say I am not skilled at it. I just try. lol
I’m very glad to read you are well. I definately understand how you must have felt. You are completely right and took the best desition.
Who knows maybe now that you are back you’ll be able to inspire readers by also writing about your passions and what you enjoy dooing.
Take care, I’ve got my eyes on you. ;-p
July 8th, 2009 at 2:13 pm
Hey Jason, nice to see you back and nice to see that you’re not allowing anxiety to run your life. Now if I can just get into the same mindset!
July 8th, 2009 at 6:02 pm
Thanks Rosy. I’m 34. I think you have a great idea. My writing doesn’t always need to be about anxiety, it can just be about life. I do have a lot of passions as I mentioned and perhaps when I am more comfortable I will share my photography, my cooking (i produce a weekly cooking show that I post online), and my music (also have video of me playing the bass guitar and piano).
Thanks Laura, i think we all just learn and grow and recover at our own pace. I tried to push for an arbitrary deadline, now I am focused on just living moment to moment.
July 9th, 2009 at 8:13 pm
I have spent hours searching the net for answers and comfort just as you. Mostly I want validation. Hearing others story helps. I skipped out on my blog for a few months. I was coming out of an episode of deep depression and I need time to heal. My blog posts seemed to have an underlying whine to them. I chose to step away. It really helped.
There are no deadlines with mental illness. With every episode I continually learn it comes on when you least expect and leaves the same way. But it always gets better.
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